Dear You,
I can tell you anything. and you know everything about me.
i don't know. you just get me, more than anyone ever will, or ever could..
the stupid moments we have, mean the world to me. and the not so stupid ones that mean even more.
i am so greatful to have you in my life. and I'm pretty sure that if i hadn't met you i would not be here.
it was when i said i "miss you," and you said back to me, "i know." i knew you would always be my bestfriend. even if we have some rough times, and if we get pulled apart i will always come back
i should be crying, but i just can't let it show.
i should be hoping, but i can't stop thinking
of all the things i should've said,
that i never said.
all the things we should've done,
though we never did.
all the things i should've given,
but i didn't.
and i know you have a little life in you yet,
i know you have a lot of strenght left.
i don't know how else to put that except for these words. i just want everything to go away...
just to go back.
i can't even think right now. i just so sorry for what i did and what i didn't do.
i slip up sometimes and i want you to know that everything i did i regret so much. i wish i could just start over. i wish i could have been a better friend when you were here. i wish i could. i wish i would have known what i know now back then.
i wish i didn't take all the moments for granted because now i miss them. i miss you. sooooooooooooo much you have no idea.
i know we're not together right now,
and its hard for me. so hard.
your the one that did the moving, but i feel like i lost a peice of me.
i feel like somebody ripped off my left side and took my heart along with it.
i just want everything to rewind and it wont.
i just dont know what to do. i dont know.
i just want you to know that i'm always here. anytime, always. your my bestfriend. and that sounds so cliche. but i know what it means in my soul, in my heart and in my head. and i know that will never ever change. and i won't ever call anybody else my bestfriend. never.
you are it.
right now i can't see anything but bad, and i feel like you are tired of me. i don't know what to think.
and i can't do anything about this feeling. i need you.
i want so much so bad, i hold this hope that things are going to get better. and i feel so selfish.
i feel like somebody shouldn't hold so much on a somebody like that.
i hate that i call you so much. but i love talking to you. and i want you there. i feel sooooooo alone without you.
i love you so much.
you dont have any idea.
and i know i do otherwise i wouldn't be crying right now.
i just want you here. :/
i want it all back. and you aren't ever coming back.
thats what kicks me in the heart everynight.
i just dont know what to do. i have this pain.
and it wont go away.
i miss you.
but i know i love you more than i could ever miss you.
thats why you are my bestfriend. my other half.
i love you, forever and always. pure of bestfriend love.
Nite
__Me__.
